Shanshiness

那麼久以來，我都一直在想到底我的夢想是什麼。我一直以為，所謂的”夢想“，就是你想要的可是卻無法實現的一個願望。聽到身邊的朋友都說他們的夢想是怎樣怎樣，就覺得 ”哇～他們的夢想好偉大、很特別“，所以我就以為夢想是假的，夢想是一個非常非常大的東西、一個是你自己虛擬出來的假象。我就覺得，沒有夢想也無所謂。可是為什麼大家都說“每個人都有他自己的夢想”，真的一定要嗎？那我的又是什麼？

昨天，我認真的想了想到底我的夢想是什麼。當我理解到“夢想”的意思時，我才曉得原來“夢想”一直存在。

我的夢想，就是在成為老師後，我希望能夠帶我的學生參加兒童主日學的活動。我每次都在幻想著說，我出來教書後，每當教會有什麼特別的節目，就藉此機會邀請學生一起來玩。為什麼？因為我希望重見我小時候的景象，就是兒童主日學的時候，教堂裡的很多排的椅子都被收起來；而現在只收了三排。雖然或許只是那麼一天，但是我也希望我的夢想有實現的那天。

另外呢，我也希望我可以在班上講故事給學生聽。前幾天去代課的時候，學生都要求講故事顯得他們真的很喜歡聽。後來我沒講，因為我不知道有什麼故事可以分享，而且我不大會講故事的技巧。我的夢想，我講的故事不只是普通的童話故事，而是聖經裡的故事。聖經的故事，不是全部都很乏味，有些還是有趣的。其實他們真的很生動，我希望能夠融合課堂舉出故事帶給他們什麼啟示醬的。當然夢想都很完美，要達到夢想，我自己也要努力閱讀翻閱聖經！

我似乎找到了我的夢想，你呢？或許你不曉得那是你的夢想，因為你覺得那是荒唐、太過誇張？夢想其實可以實現的。

當然，實現夢想不是一朝就可以的。也是要經過幾番的試煉、努力......只要你相信，一定行的。就像我相信祂一樣，會賜給我力量、知識來實現有祂的夢想。

夢想可以很簡單，夢想可以是你生活中、生命的標杆.....

August 31st ?

that's a holiday ! my friend and my cousin brother's birthday !

oh ... i havent wish them yet ..

I don't know whether did you guys read the article written by Tunku Abdul Rahman great granddaughter.

it's in facebook . here's the link if you haven't read .  CLICK!

words i like from her was .

"I wish that Malaysia would truly live up to the tourism spin of Malaysia truly Asia.

Malaysians to lead - whatever their ethnic background.

Only ONE NATIONALITY MALAYSIAN. No Malays, No Chinese, No Indians -  

ONLY MALAYSIANS.

Choose whatever religion one is comfortable with. "

I totally agree with what she wrote .

Tunku Abdul Rahman should have be so proud if he ever knows this.

so Yeaaah .

like my cousin brother said . "let's try to fill in MALAYSIAN when it asked for bangsa"

we are bangsa Malaysia . So it's not wrong for us to fill that though.

but i think the staff will come up to you and said

" sorry miss, please fill up your bangsa probably. there are india, chinese, malay and others. tick one."

Blessed Birthday Malaysiaa 

it've been 53 years ....... you're such a lovely country .

a country that free of disaster . the chosen one by GOD .

I have a foster family , in Kampung Sungai Lembu, Bkt. Mertajam ! haha ! 37 of us got their own foster daddy, mommy, sisters and brothers. Of course we are "sharing" them. It's nice to have extra family, i mean more people for you to care for , and care for u ! yeaah , they are a nice family , with 2 little cute and ... err .. active kids . But idk why they look so cool in the photo. LOL .

    Just before i came back to KL , I went to meet them again. When i stand on the gate n shout "aunty !!" .. 3 of them looked at me , and the little girl jumping and shout "Jie Jie !!" A smile crept on my face. Im happy too see them still remember my face .. OH and my name . Not only my family, my friends' family also can remember their names ! This is what i like about kampung peepz, they are always warm to you !  <3 

   Aunty saw my sweat dripped from the side of my forehead down to my chin  *exaggerate - to show how HOT is that afternoon!*, so she asked the girl to take me Honey Jelly ! It's super refreshingg ! I then sat down and chit chat with THREE of them. While i was talking to aunty, the little girl asked me to play with her. When I was playing the "eraser fight" - yes, i left this game since standard 6- , the aunty talking to me & the little girl keep calling "Jie Jie , u see ....." . At that time , I really confused who should I responsed to. But in the other way, I'm happy . This mean that how much they're looking forward for us to visit them .!

there they are. Gather togethr and play badminton ! These are the kids !  <3 pretty & handsome ryte ? xD

          Then, the boy asked me to play Badminton with them, and the neighbour's children . How i wish my life was like that . Or IS like that . Running here and there with others kids , runs into their house .. That's really the best way to get to know each other more. Leaving in city, there's no chance for the kids to experince that . Once u stepped out of the gate , you'll surely hear parents shout "HEYYY COME IN ! LATER APUNENE CATCH YOU THEN YOU KNOW!!" Haha . I guess me myself will be that type of mother . LOL . That's why i wish my kids will have the chance to “taste" the kampung lifestyle . At least there are wonderful memories for them during childhood.   and .. I dont know what's wrong with the "apunene".  I mean, They didnt did anything wrong, but we just use their name for that . accusing ?  xD

Just before i left, aunty get me a cup of ... refreshment again ! She gave me some, asked me to go back and make it myself. How nice is she !  We went there, 3PM and we left the 7PM. At first, we decided to leave 5PM. staying there, will make u forget about the time. It's carefree and so enjoy there! Oh yeaa, Im so lucky that get to meet my foster daddy as well, he came back 530PM . I said "eii uncle, u come back so early?" "Early? It's already evening lo ..." I really didnt realise about the time. xDD I chatted many with uncle as well , about my life and the children.  :D

 this boy. gonna be 2 years old. and he ain't wearing pampers ! how about my Jarren ? will he too , pampers-less ? LOL  the cutest among them ! Dont forget im cute boy biased .. xD
       

and the yellow shirted boy. who is just 5 years old. he can wakes up himself, dress himself , has his breakfast himself, mom x prepare for him . Go to kindergarten himself. . EVERYTHING . he does everything by himself ! sounds pity, but ..... he's independant ! aww , i love this type of boy . hahah !   

I think that's all from me . September, 25th ! We're going back again  , to celebrate Mooncake Tanglung Festival with them ! It gonna be a BLAST ! I can feel that everyone of them are looking forward for our "homecoming". I Sungai Lembu !  haha !

Two "gang" of teachers visited to TUDM Butterworth with their SLR and Video . We went there for out TM projects, where we have to snap photos with SLR instead of using DSLR and also make videos for our teaching planning.  ><"

SLR ?! yeaaa, SLR without digital . We are using flim. Been a long time since my NS. That's the last time Im using film to snap photos. Btw, we enjoyed ourselves there, syok sendiri over there. And , we get to see Jet depart & landed in front of us . OOH yah ! we saw some Mat Salleh soldiers as well. and the WHOLE BUS ladies just " waaaaooooo!!!! " Well, that's a great experience. I been to TUDM in KL, there are much more "unused" plane there where we can sit on it. But in Butterworth, all real, i mean they're still using them to fly !

sun-bathed thereeee . Everyone of us get enough of Vitamin D there .   ><

                     me with the HEAVY cam.                          the SLR.  



     

Fly me to the SKY .                                                    want to get this effect ? Just make ur lens blur . xDD

                                    Us, with the 2 ..... soldier ?   

Just now . When I was in the bathroom, Jarren appeared in my mind suddenly.  Seem like i started to miss him now . Yes, Jarren , my lovely nephew, who is now 1 year old and 7 months. Sometimes when I look at him, I still can't get myself believe that Jarren is now with us . He's just so precious for us. Much more for his grandpa & grandma.

"Jarren, you shared my loves from my daddy and mommy !! "  xD

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       Funny moment i mentioned earlier in the title was something happened in a Thai Restaurant in Kedah. After we (me, my sis & Jarren ) out from the toilet, then we put Jarren to walk by himself. and suddenly he fell down. As mommy, my sis qucikly hugged him and sayang him.  Im evil aunty " Walking also can fall down."  Then a waitress came to my sis and told her something & pointed on Jarren's pants.  and Guess WHAT ?!

     WE .. let Jarren wore his pants two legs in one "hole".  LOL .  okayy , Jarren's legs are so slim that they can fit in one 'hole'. then my sis and I laughed ike no one cares. almost rolling on the floor . She felt so sorry to Jarren .

    Flashback till here. I laughed in the bathroom .. hahaha ! non-stop . How can we did that mistake And Jarren was so innocent that time. I think he himself felt weird too "WHY I CANT WALK ?!" He cant talks, thanks to that waitress, if not i dont know how many times Jarren had to fall and fall again .  xDD  Just like the photo i put there   

<<<<<  "ARGHH .. HELP MEEE .!!!"

I am coming back to you SOOON , Jarren ! A week more . I wonder can he runs ?

Can I say " I miss the old Jarren" ?  hahaha !   

My sis gonna kick me if she reads this . LOL

          Today is his 22nd Birthday. He's the leader of the Korean Band, Big Bang. Found him recently, but I do listen to their music since 2 years ago? Not sure about that . Well, he's just 22. But what i like about him is , what he did, what he had achieved, his thoughts, his goals in life is beyond a YOUNG MAN who is 22 years old. Maybe lifes in entertainment world trained him up like that. With his Leo characteristcs, yeaah . He is a good leader who can reacts and thinks fast. He is a perfectionist. He can be such a dork when he plays. When come to works, he 100% into them. I like this type of people.  xD Although he is 22, but he never lost his “cuteness”.

          Oyah ! His name is Kwon Ji Yong. Known as G-Dragon. A talented boy, a rapper , a producer for every single BigBang album and even for his own Solo Album. Ain't he's ........ ? He's a tough guy, who has gone through hard times since he was a trainee 10 years ago. He'a a HOT ISSUE or you can say Gossip Man , where everyone will keep an eye on him in anything he did, his fashion .... Even songs he compose were accuse plagiarism with Florida's song. With his effort done, Florida even stated he is lucky to work with GD.

        The most important thing I love  in him . He's a Christian. In Big Bang, out of 5 , 3 are Christian. I hope fans out there can see what GOD did on GD . His music can really makes a big influence on the youngsters. They always trying to be perfect to others. But well, they are still human . No one is perfect but God is. Another thing i love , his smiles . LOL .

Yes, I am cute boy biased . xD

see him. Narcissim  ><"

Blessed Birthday to Kwon Leadah !

- Just For Fun -

触动我心弦的

就是 HILLSONG 的 STILL 这首歌

就是我部落格播放着的歌曲。

这首歌，是我在上个星期的主日第一次听

一面听，一面唱，不知不觉就被这首歌感动了

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

每次唱到副歌的时候，真的有一阵感动涌上心来

感觉 ..... 他时时刻刻都在身旁

不管发生什么事，都不曾离开我们的神

尽管我多次责怪

“为什么事情会变成这样？”

“不是说只要信靠你，就没事了？”

一切一切的怨言，他不曾计较

反而，当我遇到苦难

第一个最了解我的，就是他

他知道如何来安慰我

他知道他的儿女需要什么

知道他是神

一切都掌握在他的手里

再大的困难，他都会与我一起度过

这是一直以来支持我的

因我相信，在他里面，我一定行！

很久没感受到神的同在？

听听这首歌，让他再一次触动你的心

我个人真的很久没感受到这种感觉

我的朋友，当天在唱着这首歌，感动落泪了

那么简单的一首歌，几行的歌词，一直的重复着 .........

你感受到了吗？

今天看了看报纸，

还真的好久没有真正阅读报纸了。

发现很多国家的气候开始有很大的改变。

我在想 ，会不会哪天，马来西亚会下起雪来？

如果真的会，我应该不会感到兴奋。

为什么？

毕竟不用花钱就能看到雪花了

*自己的愿望就是哪天可以到下雪的国家*

如果真的那样了，这代表着

地球“变形了”！

一个在热带的国家竟然会下雪.....

代表着，地球真的被我们人类破坏到不行了

而我自己的气候报告，也不好。

“气象报告”都不准确

一会儿“晴天”，一会儿“阴天”

一会儿刮起“海南风”。

没人可以预测到的。

我自己也知道，自己真的不知道为什么

控制不了自己的情绪

没有原因的，就转变了

- 我妈说，这是海南人的特征 =海南风-

哈哈！我现在才知道，我也被”遗传“啦

我知道，我自己

海南风一来，就不喜欢理睬别人

越是亲近的人，越是不理睬。

我想这是因为，很亲近了，会了解

我不亲近的，我不想这样影响到他们，还会以笑脸回应他们

但我觉得这样的我很假。

我很感谢有些人，就是跟我讲讲下....

仿佛是属灵告诉我一些东西

过了一下子，调理好了心情，就开始和大家谈谈笑笑。

希望可以好好控制我的”气候“

最近倒是有人可以使我从”阴天“变”晴天“说。

:)    他的笑容。

所以我说，

"Never Frown, as you dont know who is falling for your lovely smile"

like ....

in love ....

with him . recently .

can't even get my mind out of him

for a day !

He's just my type, really !

addicted .

obssesed.

deep in love.

well ya, i will see how long

i will keep my love for him.

as, im kind of  "flower-hearted"  person.

这通电话

让我心情蛮好的 。 哈哈！

自从我回到槟城

他啊，就很少打来给我了

“？hello。 在做什么”

“刚刚上完课咯。做莫打给我？有什么事吗？”

“没有啦，好像很久没有听到你的声音，就打给你咯”

“哈哈！你也知道你很久没有大给我咩？你知道就好啦”

“OKLA，晚上再打给你，我做工先。”

结果，晚上他没有打来

第二天的下午才打来，说当天忘记了

*汗*

很多人都说

女儿是爸爸前世的情人   xD

结果是，我爸爸前世有那么多情人啊？

我爸其实比我妈更不放心我们这些女儿

每次离家，都是爸爸打最多通电话给我

哈！

哈！ 我爸的自拍技巧还不赖吧！

xD